Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Psalm 121

I've been absent from my blog for a while. Well, 13 months :sheepish grin: Let me tell you what happened 13 months ago. At the end of July 2010, we found out that I was pregnant, again. Since our last pregnancy ended in miscarriage, we wanted to keep the good news a secret for a while. But I just couldn't blog without telling everyone. So, I decided not to blog until the 'tell-day,' Oct. 2010. Tell-day came and went. We told our friends, but I was busy with getting ready for the new baby and our son's first year of pre-school. Then our baby girl was born 10 days early on March 26, 2011.
She was tiny, only 18.5 inches long and 7 lbs 1oz. She also didn't sleep. Now I know that newborns don't sleep much, but this was different. She would fall asleep after fidgeting but wake up only 45 min later, no matter how tired she was. She would draw her legs up, twist her head around, grimace, cough, sputter, fuss... Generally act uncomfortable. I was worried about her. I would stay awake watching her, nervous that she would choke in the night or that some other calamity would befall her. One night I told my husband that I had been staying awake, watching over her to keep her safe. My hubbie expressed his concern about my lack of sleep. He was also slightly unsettled that I was 'watching over' the two of them. Then God spoke to my heart, "He who watches me will not sleep nor never slumber." I was so comforted to read in Psalm 121:
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
Just like I watched over baby girl, to keep her from harm, God was watching over her too. He never nods off to sleep. He doesn't need sleep. So, I can rest knowing that He's watching over her.